Tears

I’ll meet you there,
In the eternal sadness,
The yard of God’s love,
Never had any skin here to place,
Had all purposes,
In all the inhuman places,
Where we found dark clouds,
On fate and laughs,
Of human monsters,
Of inhuman men, women,
Hymns of childhood birds,
Hymn of grandma’s dreams,
Carries by the whispers ,
Of prayers she couldn’t keep,
Of tears from her eyes,
On me,
Of tears from me, to her eyes,
To her heart,
To ease the dreams on my heart.

In the eternal sadness I’ll meet her there,
Them, all of them,
And you,
I don’t know who am i when i don’t miss you,
Without even knowing you,
I see you when we see everyone but you.

Seats were hugged by the sun,
And chased by my eyes,
As thoughts chased you,
And everyone through life,
Was hugged with my thoughts,
Every single one..smiling,
Of all humans, being themselves,
As we cried over you,
Knew me at dusk,
Didn’t know you at noon,
Except i saw it,
With airplanes and sea trains,
Or someone sitting emptied,
In a library,
Empty stadium stairs,
Scent of potato sandwiches,
And me, in my deathbed;
The middle of a bus,
Classical hymns stereo,
Reminds me of all that isn’t me,
Or here,
Because all that is me is here,
Loved, forgiven, cried over,
I wasn’t the one waited,
Happily,
I was the one who stayed.

Something filled up my heart with nothing,
My legs ran to it before my heart,
I’ll swim inside a dark cloud,
On laughs and fate,
So it can rain love instead of me,
Someone told me not to cry.