If i had nine lives,
I’d spend the first one running,
Can bearly breath, can fully live,
Good stories, bad lives,
Maybe after i hit runner’s high,
I’d find peace, i would no longer be human,
I can spend the rest of my 8 lives living by the shore with no fears.
For my next two,
I’ll spend each one with my grandmas,
Live in their kitchen, make good food,
Watch shitty movies that they like,
Listen to their regrets,
Just so i don’t fuck up the other lives,
I’ll hold their hands gently and watch them take their last breaths.
In my fourth life I’ll run away,
Like i always dreamed,
I’ll run from myself more,
The person that i can’t change,
Because I’ll never learn how to live,
That i am all the things i fear,
I’ll run through Kyrgyzstan distant fields and try to find myself there,
I’ll look in all the right places, right cities, right people.,
I’ll wander through God’s right lands.
In my fifth life I’ll listen to my parents more,
I’ll work 9-5, I’ll study well and take internships,
I’ll go to modern places and good people,
I’ll have good friends who circle me,
I’ll try to be happy.
For my sixth life I’ll live it alone in an eastern asian countryside,
I’ll write the stories i always wanted to tell,
I’ll let my world live,
I’ll live my dead poets society dreams and college and days,
I’ll walk alot in neighborhoods with flowery cafes,
I’ll read many books and maybe my books will get adapted too.
For my seventh life I’ll be a passionate musician and athlete,
I’ll be a great drummer and violinist,
I’ll go to many cities at nights,
And i might transcend in some sport of the 20 i wanna try,
I’ll try to be a better human,
I’ll try to be a better brother,
better friend,
better son.
For my eighth life I’ll make movies,
I’ll shot and create more, and do so much art that inspire others,
Live a long eased life,
while i wonder if i missed something along all my past lives,
Or somethin i lost,
And wonder what,
I’ll move back to my hometown,
And search for it in markets that don’t exist,
Wait at college doors,
Write letters I’ll never send,
and I’ll adopt a cat and a dog,
In hope they will watch me take my last breaths before my last life.
In my last life I’ll look for you.
zaki monzer 