The human heart is an interdimensional portal ,
Whatever your consciousness want or not radiate through it,
Even your deep mind,
I’m reflecting on my writing journey,
Why I’m unable to bring my stories to life after 4 years,
I’m doing this now bcz my writing files have been lost,
Although I’m heartbroken, i have no problem to make them once again.
I don’t fear writing,
I fear my dreams,
I don’t dream of fears,
I dream of what i write,
This is what i meant of an interdimensional heart.
Used to think I’m a perfectionist and I’m keep thinking because i don’t feel i will bring them as it is and the best of them, the other worldy worlds,
And not sure how they gonna be reflected in this one and this mind and this language,
A mind won’t settle for less there because it’s been settling for less here in this life for as long as it remembers,
Could be logical..
But not precisely the case,
To dive deep,
I’m still searching for a place at the bottom of the sea,
Where I’m hurt,
Because up in the surface I’m always let down,
And maybe if you’re not able to fly at the sky up,
Then you can break the sea floor down and find another one you can fly through,
When you look up at many stories,
As bocchi the rock and maybe many other fiction and non fiction,
The pursuer for a greater self , life , destiny , path.. always on his way to set them he meet up with certain circumstances, people , chances , or places that could help him , resonate with him , or even willing to dive or take the same fear as him , and then so it begins..
That’s the thing i don’t want to write about in my stories,
They will all be helpless,
Alone with their minds,
No support system,
No home to reach too and no friends to look at them , not even push them to the road of a greater purpose.
There’s no signs that they will come ,
But there’s signs that I’ll go there ,
I don’t know these lands enough yet to bring them ,
They have no use now ,
Maybe later will be a greater one ,
Maybe now the heart is holding them ,
Maybe later they’ll hold it,
Because no one is willing to ,
You’re being let down and let down that you’ll be going up with them,
Someday I’m gonna grow wings,
Hysterical and useless,
If you’re not afraid of your dreams you are not dreaming big enough , good signs.
zaki monzer 