Summer nights always existed
And we dragged behind
The cold breeze never left
We lost our way to it ,
Although we stood on it , yet blind.
And as if blessings never go
And as if forever stood still
And as if you and i and they
Stayed laying down , far away
Looking at the full-sky stars
Up the hill.
And if we stood in the presence of the eternal
What will we say ?
We couldn’t handle ,
The small sands , the few arts , the little lights ,
Just for a day ?
And if i die
Not taking my spirit away
Not flying it
Not setting it running and stray ,
If i die ,
I couldn’t handle then ,
How much beauty there is ,
How much more we’ve yet to see ,
How insignificant , little , poor , unknowingly , incomprehensible, we are
Yet it’s all washed away ,
By a tiny tide of orange clouds
Flowing up ,
Where we dreamed once ,
Where we wonder since ,
Where we wander hence ,
Now and yet .
And now i live for the hope of it all ,
Of a cold summer night ,
Where i was left ,
10 years ago ,
And will never get looked at back ,
And now i live ,
For the hope of my love ,
That i will never reach again ,
That was still tide up ,
In a dark room ,
From a window ,
Inside some boxes ,
Far , beyond , away .
And i live , for the hope that i die ,
Someday , in search of the absolute ,
In dissolving in him , his art , clouds , waves and seas ,
In his suns and sands and flowers and skies ,
In the glimmer of kindness of his people’s eyes .
If i died , in the hopes , that I’d live , somewhere ,
Where i belong ,
Where my heart is good ,
And the memories were lived ,
And my soul did flew ,
And a house was made ,
From chants and screams and laughs and smiles ,
And if in that day we saw ,
The lives of us all ,
I’d be happy that ,
I’ll flow , through a trillion dreams ,
A trillion lives ,
A trillion beauties ,
That i can’t yet know ,
But the gate of heaven seems far now ,
And u live to die to live to die , forever , in the yard , of the loving , the merciful
Of it all.
zaki monzer 