Dear nagara ,
I came back alive with mizuho and others
I found the light nozomi once saw and i saw her too ,i found her and i really didnt think itll be anytime soon
I felt like the revelation of her still existing is far away in a far awaited future
After many space battles
And life changing moments
And car screaming rides
And splitting nations
And conquering worlds
Yet i was only washing dishes
And collecting blankets to hide at
And drinking tea for living
And still wanting to get out
I didnt scream yet
Im still questioning if it exists
Im not that hero yet and im not seeing a way for the journey to start
I didnt reach a higher consciousness not did i transcend
I didnt find a way
And you know what
She came busing in crashing in into my life
Im not where i want to be but i met her in a place while im learning so at
And im learning to follow
Whatever worlds cave inside
And waves breath inside
No one ever said where or how or when should i meet her
Im still feeling devastated to go there
But for now its fine for us to be here
And it feels good , in fact it feels flying upward water falls
We’ll go there , someday
For the first time ever i have a hope in someday
zaki monzer 