“Enter the hero, enter the hero, enter the hero” Those werent just words or mutterings It was a way of flying It was a secret door to a greater hallway inside the self One time one of my brothers asked me if just wearing a red cape made me a hero , huhh , hell yeah , i could fly , and they couldnt even after i showed them how I guess it comes to one’s own core after all , and we go on trying to reach sth , trying to be sth we’re not and go distract away from this core until we are nothing so we call it back again Its not what we choose to wear or put or call on ourselves , its if we were ever worthy enough to claim it on or for ourselves A sos for the self A sos to save it all
I used to wake up and say welcome to the physical manifistation that is this world I used to think i live double lives In double worlds And that i merge and be a king like through one then go back to struggle in the other And i used to call the first a home And that whatever happens its a dream and im gonna go there back , to the real reality I started reffering to myself as “we” cause theres many of us living as this person and this body , im not a specific someone And whenever i pray and go through the pronouns ” اياك نعبد ، واياك نستعين، اهدنا “ Its like not only reffering to the faithfull people as a whole but as the lots of off-worldly people living inside and i took it personally. Now im not aware of things but im aware that , i dont only live in two , i go through multi , theres not only one world i dive into ,but multiple reality layers and when i see/watch/hear/meet/feel things in what we call this world and that reminds me of what ive experienced elsewhere, its just a mirror and a reminder of things and a duplicate of them , idk if plato went deeper to this extent where he made out his theory centuries ago , but im not alone.
We once went at 5 am swimming during my bday , i once ran during sunset with the wind and my ex best friend , we once sat up a small tower , i once walked with my ex and she gave me a rock , i used to meditate and the only matter was the hot sun , she once told me shell stay with me forever , or i guess asked me ,we used to leave college classes and go play , sometimes the whole class ,one time my friend cried there , my cousin once sat beside me and screamed , my besties once took me at the dark to gaze , i once just gazed at the waves and just thought ” this is life ” , now i just breath and i think im waves ,i cant count times i went alone , but i went alone at night and i thought ,that it really reminds me of how vast the world is and how much you can meet people and live things and yet it still all goes on , might be the place with my greatest memories although i forget about it . I dont think id live a bday morning ever again like that I dont know any certain thing about my ex besty rn College closed Some travelled away I wished my ex a great bday yesterday and she just told me thanks The rock lies in the drawer rn All separated I lived alot , and it hurts , i still go there alone , and no matter what passed , the sea still existed , these world still existed , i guess its only a time to connect to future things like i really wish to go back there again and live as much happy moments , although i know that someday ill stand there and the whole city will be destroyed because of me , after a long passed time since a battle at sunset occured and half of us will be dead , and someday id be expecting someone to return back to their “so called home” there after a galactic battle , someday ill go there and scream too and someday was no day. Gib mir die hand Ich bau dir ein schloss aus sand Irgendwie , irgendwo , irgendwan…
Imagine having a normal day at highschool , then the entire place , students , and you got drifted into a blank space , another dimension where nothing exists and where everything consist of new rules and powers , then you keep drifting on again from one dimentional place to another , from one world to other , until you live whats around 2000 years in these alternate worlds, with people , each different time , different , with each got an unique one representing his inner self , and also the girl you like , can u imagine how many lives youve lived ? Without even getting old ? And then u find out that your power was drifting everyone into a new world.. and as for the girl you like her’s was being a compass that sees light , the light that you are all searching for to return to reality , to this dimensional normal life we live in.
That light is a view for the heart , for true belonging , for growing up , moving forward , facing the world.. The girl you like died at some alternate world , because well she opposed the entire world that is trying to reach the perfect game , the jam of many dimensions , u tried and managed to escape finally with your friend at the end , another interrupted you , he found out everthing’s and everyone’s gone all this time , theres nothing to hold up to and he lets you pass , finally he accepted, that theres no place for anyone to go to , that there’s no road to god except being here , being now , some lost themselves in the process , some died , some became a forrest , and some escaped , because no one is obliged to stay in his mental prisons. You return to the real world , no time passed , all these 2000 years where just lived , inside you , its not the better world and you cant change it into one but you still choose it , when you went back , you find out everyones is still here living and going to school , except no one remembers who are you or what happened , all these goddamn years, and all those worlds, and you find out the one you love that died is still alive here , but cant remember anything too ,and this is all the light she once saw , you go on and live a normal life again , in silence , you struggle through your studies , through work and with people and nothing is extraordinary as where you used to be. your friend you escaped with was the only one to remember too , and you both grow up together and accepted who you are and how far you came..
“As long as theres still a little of who you were on that island there, youll be fine..”
This is a story ive both experienced irl and experienced through anime media , this resembles my entire life , this anime moved me to the core of my existence where alot of things i imagined , lived and drifted through happened, this is just the tip of the iceberg of my (and many) interpretation and understanding for this story , and that i wrote only after my first warching.. #sonnyboy
عندما كنت طفلاً ، رأيت الله، رأيت ملائكة؛ رأيت أسرار العالمين العلوي والسفلي. ظننت أن جميع الرجال رأوا ما رأيته. لكنّي سرعان ما أدركت أنهم لم يروا…
I always knew that as a child i was more capable spiritually , i even developed lucid dream and astral projection like i was blinking , i didnt even knew what they were , that , for a 10 yo child was a great feet , and now im just trying to find my way back to the greater understandings i had for things and for god
I’m slowly drifting to you The stars and the planets Are calling me A billion years away from you I’m on my way I’m on… I’m on…
الى اين يجب ان نذهب ، نحن المتجولون في هذه الارض المهدورة سعيا وراء انفسنا الافضل… الى اين ننتمي ، نحن الذين لم يجدوا سبيلا واحدا يسمى بالوطن الى من اللجوء ، نحن الذين ارهقنا مرور الجميع ومرورنا معهم حتى باتت مشاعرنا هائمة في بشر هائمين الى متى الانتظار ، فشمس امالنا هجرتنا عند كوكب متوقف الى اي قصيدة نسبح ، نحن من سافرنا مع التيار ورقصنا عندما سحبنا الى ماذا نبحث ، نحن الذين خسروا كل ما اعجبهم قبل ان يعرفوه الى اين المسير ، نحن الذين لم نعرف في الموهبة سوى المسير الى ماذا نحدق ، نحن الذين لم نرى الا مجامل الوجود الى متى سنقف ، نحن الذين شاهدوا شريط الحياة من بعيد بسكوت وملأتهم الدهشة الى ماذا قلبنا لا يزال ينبض ، ما هو المجهول المحبوب ذاك الى من نركض ، نحن المجهولون الذين يعبرون كعجوز انبت الخير لقوم وظنوه مسافر سبيل الى اين نسقط لنستريح ، نحن الذين تم صلبنا من حالاتنا الى من سوف يزور ذكرياتنا المنسية ، تلك التي عشناها بوحدة الى ماذا نامل ، نحن من اكلنا هاوية السواد ولم نخرج بعد الى اين نهرب ، نحن من لم يتبق لنا سوى ظلالنا الى متى الجواب ، الذي لم نعد نهتم لوجوده الى من روحنا عبرت كل هذا الفضاء لتسكن في عيونه الى من يبقى ، نحن من لم يركض لنا أمر او اهتمام الى اين نذهب ومتى ولما ، نحن من نملك سوى عالمك العميق واحلامك..احلامك
يا الله يا الله يا الله ، باذنك اسمح لي بان أطلب الخلاص من الايام التي ابحث فيها عن المعنى فلا اجد يا الله دلني اليك وعليك فكل الطرق تنادي باسمك وانا وحدي لا اعلم باي طريق اعبر ، ساعدني فانت وحدك تعلم كم اكره الخيارات ، واخاف على نفسي بان لا اصل اليك ، واخاف على نفسي بان لا اصل اليك ،
zaki monzer 