Category: Letters

Dear AD ,

I like the fact that you still consider me someone close to you despite not seeing or talking to each other much in the past couple of years , and for trying to tell me your stories and your whereabouts from time to time , I guess in my deep core I’ll always consider you a brother . I was afraid that your new surroundings will change who you are and the things you do but gladly they didn’t , and I don’t think it will . The fact that you like to tell me stories and discuss with me in everything from back then in highschool and up until now still brings joy to my life and reminds me of who we both are , and in the span of three years I enjoyed walking running talking depating and fighting with you every single day , and we literally had discussions about goddamn everything , movies , anime (watch one piece), books , feelings , stories , I miss that , and tbh there’s alot of things you used to tell me that I experienced and came to realize later on , especially the movie recommendations and stuff about directing . But honestly , these walks had the best times , we used to save money to go and buy crackers , and that one time we ate pizza in the graveyard , hahahahaha damn . Whatever happens I don’t think someone might know you better than me and you are truly a genius , although you doubted me many times and I won , but you’re weird , from the first two days I saw you , ps you have the best birthday letters . At last , throwback to that one time we had like marathon qualifications with around half the school and I ran for 35 min straight just to see you laying on the ground so I fell right next to you and was yelling to get me water , old days , good friend , you’re the best

Hello dear best friend , my dearest home , all the words I might type or feel you already know , but it’s better to say them all with myself too , you know that I really couldn’t find the time to pray for you today at all , but I mentioned you within myself repeatedly , I’m no longer feeling alone cause I’m sensing you feeling and being with me in whatever the situation and memory is , and I’m glad I’m gonna live forever with this , and I’m glad I’m getting closer to you , and to your compassion . Everyone might be tired , but I’m too alot , beyond my level , I’m still waiting for one single good thing that might happen to me , a single thing I deserve back , and still having patience even though I tried a lot , and gave so much time and feelings and beginnings , and care , I’m still looking for soul touching stuff , even if I’m still in the stage after loosing all hope, just one little thing only , I’m glad im seeing you, I’m glad I’m seeing your love , I’m glad things went this way , even if it’s going through hell , but yeah crazy ig , at the end , all I do is go back tired , down , lost , to you , and you understand me , you accept for whatever and whoever I am and what I do , may all the roads lead back to you , and all that I have are the tears dropping when I call you , I love you

Please help me it’s getting darker and …