I know i don’t always get a not-lonely night
And i know i dont even get a day free from my mental terrors
But sometimes i get a moment that will make me go like :
Oh look you’re at a wholesome small infinity and it doesn’t matter what will happen the next second because you’re at a pure meaningful loving memory.
When you fall asleep unintentionally and wake up to your grandmas voice just realizing and saying ” yaaburne ” ,
When your sisten kisses you on the back at a night ride ,
When your identical baby cousins switch names and each answer you with the others name and you dont know who is who,
When your baby cousin tells you to come so he’ll just wanna kiss you ,
When you see two young women playing and building with the rocks on the sideway of a park because maybe they never got too ,
When you’ve been at the worst and not feeling if youre even good at anything anymore even being good but you help that human sitting on the street on a cold night ,
When you see a pure young boy saying to a dead religious figure on his graveyard ” goodnight sayed , ill see you tomorrow “
When a girl keeps watching you from a distance but youre even afraid to look to make her feel shy , knowing that youll never see her again ,
When you see your reflection on the glasses on an empty mall and just.. dance ,
When you reward two unknown working women after a long lonely day because you dont know what to do in life and they just thank you happily,
When someone tells you not to die because he’s not prepared yet for it ,
When you hear that you’re a geniune huggable person ,
When your brother rushes to put money in sadaka because you told him you dreamed of him going to hajj ,
When your ex best friend waves from you from far far far away in the crowd…
Maybe i should stick to these little infinities,
Maybe they only matter now
zaki monzer 