Walking in the path of the ones before me
I feel sick to think
And i don’t know if i should be writing this right now
I know that as i move worlds move with me
And although I’m glad of paths now
And paths to come
But i keep thinking of the ones who passed
What if we had better worlds and they moved on , without me
What if i moved , but not in the world i live in
What if the world i lived in was never made for us to be together , kind , peaceful , joyful , together
And maybe my heart isn’t made for it
But everyone’s heart was
I wish we opened up , everything
I wish i could let my inner beings to come out , to let them see
That it was always flowing in alternate dimensions
I wish i belong , god
I’m thankful I’m shown all of these
And of these possibilities
And spaces within eyes
And within peaople
The ones before me went away , from themselves
Theirselves went away from the world
The world went away from me
In one hand i want to belong , and in the other i can’t move on from all that we could have
I keep telling myself home is where I’m going
And if that’s it then i totally accept it
Maybe i always saw myself watching , on a higher level , this existence
Maybe i longed to be watched , to be gazed at from far away
For a world to come and pull mine out
To forget here
To belong here
zaki monzer 