To Heiwa , Jane , and every soul of my lost beloved ones hearing me right now.
I might be an emperor right now and you might all be proud , but i lost everything
And i don’t know how to move from that , from you
What’s the point of the road and the destiny if everyone is gone , and I’m only walking through stranger worlds and stranger lands with stranger people ?
If being strong is giving me an advantage then I’m really so weak
I can’t move on
I can’t change
I can’t stop shedding blood
I couldn’t stop the war
I couldn’t save zoya
I couldn’t save my sisters
As the same thing i did to my brothers
As the same thing i did to my father , now that i knew the time stone passed under my hands…
And i can’t still find my mother , not even her shadow.. they call me the girl that exists in every time yet i still can’t find my mother’s one.
Speaking of hands , zake’s one still haunts me since that day on the shore , and now there’s just zypher laying there waiting for me.
I wish i can tell him I’m home
But i lost my home here
How much sorrow can i take ?
Was i ever strong for handling all these loses and grieves ?
Will i ever find a home that doesn’t die , or at least a one that doesn’t go and leave me here ?
Not just the world moved on without me , Worlds did…
and i can’t do the same thing even though I’m standing at the top of them all.
zaki monzer 