If you read this
It means you are reading this
And you know you that i’m such a sarcastic rotten person
But you don’t know me
And i don’t know you
But i know you
And i don’t know myself
Okay to give it a try
One two three start
Im sad
And im fine
And im not devastated about the future
Nor worried
But i dont know what to expect then
But i know what to expect now
Although im devastated in the mean time
And i dont know why are you reading this
But you might be one of my close people
And thats a high probability
So here’s a kiss ==》》 a kiss
Its hard
Although maybe easier than many times in human history
And than many places out there
But its hard
Im writing this because i need a space
A space for me
That tells me theres some place i still belong to in this world
And some people
And that whatever might happen i can go to and write and weep and write
And i want to live
And i want to know myself
And god
And if there’s a future with who i love
And i lived alot
But i want it all to stick together
I accept myself
But im trying to be a better man
And i dont want to change the world
Nor myself
I want peace
I used to write when i’m depressed and when life was good
Now i’m good but life’s depressing so i’m writing all the time
I want to stop writing
And to start writing
They say live as if there’s no tomorrow
I want to sleep as if there’s no tomorrow…
In peace
zaki monzer 